To: my dearest Shum Wei Ying

HEH.
u are so funny la... typing in chinese. haha. for your comfort and convenience, i shall do this in English :)

ok firstly... ALAMAK why u put my name so big in your blog. i will paiseh one can annot.... haha
and im amazed u still remember how to write my name... haha... really. i can totally imagine u thinking through your head "die la. her qing is which qing... the lin is which lin". but... uh-hm.. u surprise me :)
and now u must be thinking "stupid qinglin! i never forget ok! my chinese not that bad yet"

haha. but ya, your chinese is not as bad as i think. at least still can flow and i understand it pretty well... 不愧是德明人！ haha.

and the part about how writing in chinese will put people off... i laughed til i almost fell off the chair. really. i think u are inherently funny one actually. haha u wan to murder me now right?

yup anyway... the part in front was to put people off reading the rest (they'll think its rubbish that doesnt concern them so they'll skip right? but since s'poreans are so kaypo... so mebbe not then. but its a valiant attempt on my part)

he's been in Seattle for like... erm 1 week and it feels soooo blooody looooong la. but technology is becoming out best friend and we are webcamming(not very often though), talking on the phone(daily) and msn-ing(daily too) so its ok.
its quite ok for me though he has the tough end coz he's there alone. without friends, without family and in a place where chinese are not exactly welcomed. its not that they are racist or anything... but u're in australia i think u know what i mean :)

was feeling like so terrible the first day he left. coz ya.... like i said, a big part of me flew away. i can't be there to see the things he see, i cant be there to know the people he knows, i can't be there for him to complain, to talk to, to care for. and he isn't here to eat a simple dinner with me, to hear me laugh at ugly people (yes i still do that. HAHA), to hear me complain about profs and irritating people, or even to shop with me (though he hates that). the list just goes on... u know.

but i'm ok now. i figured although a part of me felt so low coz i missed him, but its also feeling sorry for myself. and i hate that. i don't get why people feel sorry for themselves coz the most basic thing a person should learn is loving yourself, respecting yourself and getting yourself out of a rut if you're ever in one.

so erm ya... im fine now. am glad im fine, though he's still not too fine. takes time i guess. and u know him la.... its harder for him to get into the whole US culture of "hey bro how's it going"... haha. u get my point.

and i tell him... what doesnt kill u make u stronger. its a cliche but i think it cannot be truer. time will pass, but chances come once in a blue moon and memories and experiences are yours to keep forever. go to the states, if its what u want, great. if not, come back to singapore (or anywhere else for that matter) and be thankful u had the chance to choose.

and well... when u think your life sucks, someone out there has it tougher. agree? haha.

there's so many things i wanna tell u! but as it is, there are silly kaypos who will read this and as heckcare as i may be, its damn weird to tell the whole world la!!!
so email me okkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u can email him also la. then he'll know u care and he'll feel better too!
by the way, u got his name wrong =.="
its 之聪。 like zhihui u know? haha but u got her name right!

heh. anyway.... I MISS U LA WOMAN. when u coming back!???!!!!
soon soon ok!!!! and i wanna see THAT guy. u know who la hor? hee.


am so glad i have a friend in u.
and glad that u seem to be doing nicely in aust with lotsa nice people :)
take care ok! :)