feeling so.... dull
bad word.
its as if so many things suddenly seem meaningless.
sudden pang of it.

humans are indeed oddities.

and i thank whatever it is that allows me to pull myself out of it when i feel myself slipping away.

i crave solitude.
too much.
sometimes it scares me.

human beings are meant to find solace & companionship in each other, are they not?

too many times, i dont find the need.
sometimes, i loathe it.

god. i sound zapped.