cant believe the stark simplicity of it just hit me
its like...... a wave of realisation finally swamps over.......
first thing in the day

and to think that its my mom who said it
she asked me how could i have such a friend, when we were so different?
not different in a complementing sort of way, so to speak

and ya..... thats y i have never really opened up to her i guess
never really told her anything of substance
why i get pissed, angry with her words & actions
and i am not one to get angry easily
she'll beg to differ, yes...... because it comes out of me so easily when its her
that must speak for something i suppose

and well...... we just dont share what good friends are supposed to
i know, because i have pple that i can talk to about anything,
pple i know whom i can last for a very very long time
because there is that root of understanding, trust & bond........

and the thing is, i dont even feel compelled to tell her anything

so glad im seeing amylum later :)
i may not see amy often, but i just talk like a faulty tap when i see her
speaks for something too, ya? :)
no matter how exasperated i am with her sometimes, i never feel that anger in me ignited...

so..... to make me so angry & pissed at such a high rate is a feat indeed

and..... its just so that i do not think very highly of her character
straight it is, for i wouldnt want to be friend with someone i do not like
its just that, i have not seen qualities i admire in her

and i think...... thats so sad


i need to talk to someone... grrrr
and amy it shall be
hahah

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and i would nv think liverpool are champions
no matter how many times they lift that cup
because u do not see that quality in them

as my sis said, : "well, i tell myself even porto have been champs so Liverpool is like an english porto. get used to it... and u will sort of forget it"
HAHHA

and shawn says its a bookie conspiracy

i think its a bad dream